Hear Me Out

i didn't mean anything to what i did
it's just a game a i played
it's never meant for anyone

feelings hurt, respect is broken
i'm the one whose wrong again

now i'm trying to get trough my life
with eyes watching every step
i was never right, you only see the wrong in me.
I'M ALWAYS THE BAD ONE.

what i hate about my day
is when they start to compare
don't you know what i feel??
i was stripped down and i shuttered to the ground

can you hear me?
i'm shouting what i have to say
but no matter how loud i scream
no one seems to listen.

in your eyes i'll always be a liability
you're blinded by lies that you can't see what is real.

i'm always WRONG and you're always RIGHT

why? why? why?
could you be so unfair?
why don't you try to open you ears and listen to me
you're over ruled by stories you hear, but do you know what is real??

hear me out..
maybe i have something to prove
that maybe my side is something to consider.

i am who i am..
and i'll never change.
for what i am makes me the person you see.
NO MORE, NO LESS

UNFORESEEABLE

i have not foreseen this coming...
that one day i'll be saying this to you.
I'M OVER YOU.

i'm finally free from depressions and pain, i'm free from jealousy
and most of all..i'm free from my love for you...

it's been days since i've spoken your name, since i've longed to see your face, since i've wish that you might someday be the one.
i'm free from this rechedness that you kept me under.
i'm finally breathing in my own air for the first time.

ohh..how light it is to feel normal and out of problems...
too bad..
you and i make quite a few good things..

but..away from being free..
i truly would like to thank you for everything..

you opened my eyes and heart to things that i never knew exist.
thank you for teaching me how to love..
you've been my inspiration..and you'll always be..
THANK YOU SO MUCH!

DEAR BESTFRIEND

thinking about the years we've spent.
all the memories and events that has occurred and shared.
i never would have imagined that we'd grown apart.

i was always the one there for you when you needed help.
i was always the one there for you when you got hurt.
i was always the one there for you when no one else was.

now every memory, every evidence and every fact that i knew about you left me questioning if they were true.
from all the people i have been with, i never expected you to be the one who would do this to me.

questions, lots ans lots of questions keep haunting my mind. sorting through all the things you've told me.
"I CANNOT DISTINGUISH THE TRUTH FROM LIES"
is it true that you have this...
is it real that you're...
do you even have that...
do you even know him...
IS HE A REAL PERSON?
these questions kept on resurfacing every time i think of you.

i have been deprived from the truth.
many are telling me that there's something not right about you.
that you've become this person that tries to out shine others.
ITS NOT YOU.
ITS NOT THE GIRL I'VE MET BEFORE.
WHO ARE YOU?

i tried to defend you.
i tried to convince them that it's not who you are, that maybe they've mistaken you for someone else.
but with each lie, it gets bigger. as lies began to be covered up with new lies.

i tried to reason out.
maybe you sad?
maybe you feel alone?
maybe you need assurance?
but with time, i see you becoming a different person.
a person unrecognizable behind every anomaly you've created.

i find myself distancing ME from you.
offering opportunities so you can tell me the truth.
but what i found left me bothered.
"YOU TRIED TO FEED ME WITH MORE OF YOUR LIES."

i cannot stand and see my "BESTFRIEND" get eaten by the darkness.
i've somehow learned to detach my self from you.
now we barely talk, hardly saw each other.

i do not regret the things i did.
i cannot watch you destroy what little dignity you've got.
I CANNOT BE CAUGHT IN ASSOCIATION WITH YOU.

all i wish is that you'd get your new start.
that you manage to change and grow into someone different.

yes, this is me telling you that we are no longer friends.
this is me saying that you've actually wasted a decade's worth of friendship. because somehow you've manage to let your selfishness over power your self reasoning. and for that i am truly sorry.