Bored

so, i'm sitting on my bed, eating Butterfinger and drinking a liter of water. yeah i know boring right? well i may seem like a fun and jolly person but inside i'm just as quiet as the wind. yes, i know i don't seem the type of person who always space out and become really silent but deep inside i enjoyed these quiet moments to myslelf. because i know that once i get out to the real world, i wouldn't be given this privilege to have this sort of 'me' time.

if you ever follow me on a day to day basis, which means my regular day when i don't have classes or that i didn't go somewhere, you'l find my routine very basic.
I WAKE UP
I EAT BREAKFAST
I OPEN MY EMAILS, FACEBOOK, TWITTER
I READ BOOKS/FANFICS
I EAT LUNCH
I CONTINUE READING
I TAKE A BATH
I EAT SNACKS
I SIT IN MY ROOM
I EAT DINNER
I CLEAN UP
I GO TO BED
and every day that is my routine. nothing exciting. nothing to look forward to.

but this past few weeks has certainly had its points. i was able to see more of my friends and talk to them. conversing with my family has been easy and carefree. finding something remotely to do was always present.

so i have less than 2 weeks before i finally go to school and i'm really really excited about it. i'm not excited about the people that i'd meet  per say, but i am excited for the challenge and trill that i'm about to embarked on. people say that college is where you either make it or break it, but for me i look at college as somewhat an extension of who i am. i am taking up a program that i see my self in, that i have the passion to actually pursue and take on. it is what i see myself doing in the next 5 to something years. and for that to be the foundation of what my life's going to be.

but for now i have to sit patiently for the time to come. foe now i'll enjoy the quiet and succumbed to my fantasies and be brought to different parts of the universe until the time that i bring myself back to my own reality.

Awesome People

ok, so since i love you all, i'll be posting something that i normally wouldn't post but the hell with it.

so today, June 28, 2012 was one of the happiest day i have had since the start of my vacation. there is only 2 weeks left before i officially enter the world of college. this day however made me realize what i've been missing this past 4 months. i met up with two of my bestest and greatest friends. it was refreshing to see them. being bound captive in the four corners of my room really took a toll on me. i didn't even realize how much i've missed them until we were actually conversing face to face.

let me talk about the 2 people that i would choose over my boyfriend. first one is Esen Laguna. we've know each other since we were grade 5. she's a really awesome chick. anyone would tell you how great she is. currently she is studying at Mapua Makati, yes i know its sad cause i'm at the Intramuros branch. but relatively speaking, distance was never a problem for us. through out the years we've had a close relationship even if we were in separate classes. its like we never were apart. we know exactly what the other is thinking and what the other person likes or dislikes. i'd say i'm a lucky girl to ever meet her. we've been through thick and thin and like most bestfriends we've also experience some down times. but what really makes her so cool is that she really is a great friend. she's supportive, fun, active and loves a good laugh. if you've got problems and all she'll be the first person to answer your call. she doesn't judge you for your worth but actually see's the person you really are. she an intelligent and sweet girl that most of you would fall in love with. she is approachable and kind. well i'm practically gushing right now and i've got one more friend to talk about. so to sum it all, my dear friend Esen is my rock and she's totally awesome!

nest is a pretty young thing called Monica Labing Isa. i've known her for 4 yeras since i was a second year. she equally awesome as Esen but she has a distinct quality that really suits her. i love her to the deepest pit of my heart. i love that we share a passion for gossip (yeah, tell me about it) and that we hate the same people. hahahaaa, but kidding aside what really makes Monica a great friend is because she understands. whatever it is your problem she always has something to say. she never runs out of ideas and would be there for you. she is now studying at Mariam College and taking up Accountancy. hse's full of wit and fun. there is never a dull moment with her. you'll never run out of conversation topics and she's always got the latest insight of all things. i love the way that she's afraid of technology, opting to do the traditional ways. i like that her stranghts are my weakness and her weakness are my strengths. we really compliment each other and of course we love talking so much.

seeing them again today really made me realize that i have a great bunch of friends, even though i don't have many but, they are still all important and precious to me. well i hope that they get to actually read this and be happy for what i said. this goes without saying that without this 2 people in my life i don't know where or who will i be. they hold me firm on the ground and never misses a day to remind me of why and what am i here for.

so with this i hope that you get a feel of what my life and my friends are all about.
until next time!

ciao!

If You Ever Come Back by The Script and Every time We Touch by Cascada

hi there everybody!! so this week i happen to chose 2 songs for us. why? because i'm suffering from a difficult break up. yeah, yeah i know its sad, bad things just dont go the way we wanted them to be. these song really remind me of HIM. and i really just like to remind myself that WE were something great before. so yeah, i hope you'll listen to them first then read my 'why' part at the bottom.

IF YOU EVER COME BACK BY THE SCRIPT:


EVERYTIME WE TOUCH (SLOW VERSION) BY CASCADA

credits to: dragengirl08

so i'm not really going into the specifics of the songs 'cause quite frankly i'd be sharing my personal reason why i have chosen these songs. yes, its more on the personal side and i know that you really don't need any of my rambling here but i dont really care. so any ways, the first song 'if you ever came back' really makes me want to revive my lost relationship. the song is really all about getting back together. i never really stopped loving him, and if it were up to me we never should have broken up. and with this song, i just really wanted HIM to know that whatever circumstance we are in, i would not hesitate to help him out. yes, we may not get back together but i would always be a shoulder to cry on. we had a great friendship and i wouldn't want that to go to waste. if i had my way we would be back to our old selves. i miss him badly. i missed the time we would laugh out loud. i missed the times we would hang out. i missed the way we talk about everything and anything under the sun. but most of all i missed our private moments when only the two of us knows what the other is thinking about. if ever he was reading this, i would like him to know that i will never be gone, that even if we were with someone else i would always be here loving and caring for you and if thing were not to late and that you do realize that you somehow want me again, i would gladly take you back.

moving on before i become a mush here.
'everytime we touch' reminds me of the time we were a little intimate with each other. i really miss the holding of hands and the hugs we share. though i know that somewhere, sometime ago that we shared these affections, they really meant a lot to me. no one has ever made me feel loved and cherish than him. and i guess thats why i chose this song.

so really thats all there is to it. yeah, i was bitter and naive but could you blame me? i really though the he was THE ONE. but sadly, i wasnt really enough for someone like him.so i hope that you'd enjoy the songs and do me a geat favor of finding a different meaning to them then email me. so thats that for now.

ciao.

:)

hi there! just a quick announcement! hahahaa

so if you want copies of the songs i have been posting here you can comment here and type in your email. i can give you the free songs (or album if im in the mood) and i'll send them to you via email.

have a nice day! :))

ciao!

Paradise by Coldplay

video:


ok so, for this week's music recommendation i really had a hard time finding new material for this. so its really a miracle when i was going through my music collection when i just randomly picked a song and then this is what played.


i always have a big fascination over bands and such. i love that there are so many minds working on a record. so this week, i opted for a coldplay song from their new album 'Mylo Xyloto'. it's funny cause i was never really into the rock genre but something about bands like Coldplay, Linkin Park and The Fray that has me kinda hooked on their music, yeah yeah your probably thinking that i'm weird, well guess what yes i am. but having a bizarre taste in music makes me really proud of. i dont really settle for the usual RnB so yeah, whatever(i'm rambling now) back to the song. what really made me love this song is the uniqueness of the sound and texture. its not something that you hear from a rock band. plus the message of the song really sets me into action. i kinda like picture myself looking for paradise and all, so that really hits some deep rooted desires from me. but the fact that you could actually sing to it while listening, plus the lyrics are so easy to memorize because its repeating over and over.


i give this song thumbs up if you just want to relax and unwind. its great if your having alone time and just read a good book with some coffee or tea. so i hope that you'd have the time to listen to this wonderful song. so with that i'll leave you to rest and have a great week ahead of you. 

IMPERFECTIONS

i was never your favorite daughter.

i was never your first choice.

all that i am to you is just another child.

i never felt your love.

i never felt your care.

i never felt your acceptance.

i did everything that i could to gain your approval.

i spent my whole life trying to impress you

i made myself independent so that i would seem strong in your eyes.

you never took notice, didn't even make an effort to get to know me. countless nights of crying and self loathing is what i sleep to. yes i've made mistakes, but i learned from them. i wasn't going for perfection, i was only doing everything that i could do for you to take notice.

it was always about them and never about me.
what do they have that i don't?
the same blood and genes runs in our systems.
the same eyes, nose and hair.
but what do you see in me that makes me different from them?

all i ever wanted was for you to see me, was for you to appreciate me.
i never wanted the things you give me, it never made me happy that you gave me gift just because it was my birthday. i wanted to be loved. i want to feel the same adoration that you gave my siblings.

but you know what? i never once questioned the way you raised me.
i never asked for more than what was necessary. i loved you from the beginning. i had no choice but to accept what was given to me. i would never choose someone else over you. you gave me life and reason. without you i wouldn't be the strong and dependable person that i am now.

you became a beacon in my life. my hero and confidant when i felt troubled. you never once made me feel alone. yes, you were absent during my times of triumph and were constantly presents in time of my defeat. but during those times you never ceased to forget to remind me of my roots.

thank you for being you. thank you for the endless things that you have done and given me. I LOVE YOU FATHER and you deserve nothing but the best.

FAST CAR by Tracy Chapman, cover by Boyce Avenue

so last week i posted the song 'I Won't Give Up' by Jason Mraz and it was really really a great song and all but this week i kinda took a different direction, opting for an oldie instead of something new. Yeah, yeah i know, i suck right? but you can never really know what great music is if you don't go for the oldies. actuallt the version that i am digging right now is the cover of Boyce Avenue ft.Kina Grannis, but i also happen to like the original one. yeah, so..i'd be doing a 'review' for the both and lets see which one is better (though nothing beats the original, fo' sho') here's the video of the covered one:



and here is the original one:



so, that the two versions of the song in which i really like. so where to start, i think i'll start with the original one if you don't mind? hahahaa, of course you don't.

Tracy Chapman is a singer-songwritter and started out her careen during 1986, she is know for her songs 'Fast Car' and 'Baby Can I Hold You'. her distinct and prominent voice is what sets her apart among her peers and colleagues. (gosh, i'm so formal here). anyways from what i've researched her songs tends to have a deeper meaning other than the obvious. her song 'Fast Car' is actually brings awareness to poverty (yeah, i know right, such an awesome song for the Philippines) well, i really think that its smart of her to really voice out her concerns and let her listeners and other people know what is happening around us. the luxury of having expensive things and splurging on materials that we don't really need, for some is a dream come true. but when you think about the people that actually has nothing, you tend to digress and feel selfish, cause' here you are bathing in all the money in the word and at the same time people outside are dying from starvation and the cruel weather. ok, i've broached a heavy topic here, so to lighten up the song is really cool. its different from the ones you usually hear. its bluesy sound is really appealing if you want to relax and think about things. its a great soothing tune to your ears, i've actually got my player on replay with this song while writing so, yeah its really awesome!

now that that's done, lets move on to boyce avenue's cover.

i really really think that since it was a duet, it gave the song more character and dept. it has a certain vulnerability to it. for me i sense a story from to points of view. its light and breezy, it has a certain charm to it. now, i know that your all thinking that this band has actually done numerous covers for a lot of artists, but i think that they bring something different to songs they do and they actually gives it a twist, like what the judges in American Idol said, they put themselves in the song, they make it theirs. they don'y copy the originals and they put their own sense to it. i actually have their complete collection of covers and original songs (yes they do have originals) so i really get the impact for listening to all their songs, which is a lot! ok ok, the girl, Kina Grannis, is actually good here. she has a very distinct voice like the original. her smooth and husky tone really brings out a different aura to the song. so i give her plenty of thumbs up there! all in all i think they did a wonderful job of bringing justce to such an incredible song!

there you've read what i've gotta say and i know that somehow you've also though about some of the things i brought up. i hope that you'd enjoy the song just as i have and realize that sometimes its good to take a second look on the oldies and you might not know, you just might find the perfect song for you.. so to that i'll leave you all to ponder!

ciao! 

I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz

(listen to it while reading)

i first encounter this song while flipping channels in the telly. since i really love the channel i stopped and listen to what it is currently showing then this song came up. i was really drawn to it because of the laid back melody and soulful lyrics. it speaks about getting through tough times and great challenges. it urges us to do whatever it takes to get through whatever we are facing. it allows us to realize the love and care we have for the people around us and that whatever circumstances we are in, we should not lose hope and continue doing what we know is right. it lets us find the inner strength that we have and makes us do whatever it takes for the people we love.

in this song, you can hear the vulnerability of Jason Mraz' voice. its a different take on his usual carefree style. you can really hear the maturity and distinctiveness of his songs in his new album; LOVE is a four letter word.

so i hope that you'd get the chance to hear this wonderful song and really think about the things that matter most to you. things that you are willing to let go and things that should be worth fighting for.

THE MAN!! JASON MRAZ :)))

his latest album "LOVE is a four letter word" is out on the market! grab your copies!!

Something Different

Okay, so you're all probably wondering why i have this note. these past few days i've been to different sites and blogs that has really awesome insights that i realize that i could do so much more! i know, i know that i'm really just talking to my self around here and that i really don't get any readers or followers, but humor me a little bit.

So in the course of the coming weeks, i'd be posting about things, events etc. that i think are awesome and are praise worthy. i'd be like doing reviews and such. i won't be sticking to one genre, i could be babbling about food, music, books, celebrities and such so i don't think you'd be bored.

anyways, i'll leave you all to your doings and i hope that even just a little bit, you'd be able to get a glance on the things that i am writing about!

ciao!