i'm still here

hey everybody! if you're all wondering if im still alive, well i am. and im really really sorry if i hevent been writing for such a long time. life is really really crazy and hectic. but dont worry, soon i will be back full force. just be patient and im sure you'll all like what i'd write here :)) well until then, just hold on.

laters babes.

Nothing Compares To You

hey there!! i've been having a lot of free time this couple of days and i'm taking this chance to post, post, post  and post. well as you know, i'm a student at MAPUA right now and having a "quarterm" really affects my schedule of posting and updating and tomorrow, October 8 will be the start of my 2nd term, so expect that my posting schedule would be irregular and would not be as often as i am posting right now.

anyways, lets shift to other things like isn't it awesome that its already my 3rd post for the music chronicles? i mean looking at my schedule i would've never expect that i could post the 3 songs that i promised and i now right now you're probably bored with all the things i am saying so here is my 3rd pick for TMC.

for my music choice today, i chose something very different from the songs that i have been posting its english but the singers are from korea. i dont consider them as a KPOP group since they dont really sing pop songs they are more of ballad and rnb style and im really hoping that you'd like this song choice.

my friend introduced them to me and i quickly fell in love with their songs and i think through this blog, i get to have the privilege to introduce new and unheard artists (well in my case i didnt really know them) so im keeping my fingers crossed that you'd like them as well. so here they are;

AZIATIX - "Nothing Compares To You"

please do enjoy the song and i'll be posting very soong about my verdict with these song, so until then.

LATERS BABES

I'm Feeling Better Today

hi again! i'm feeling inspired to write some shinanigans for today and i'd like to share one of the song that i've been singing all week, and due to the fact that i've been feeling sick, this song is my rock for being able to go through and survive whatever it is that i am feeling.

its another NEYOBSSESSION song and i hoope that you'll like it.

BETTER TODAY by NEYO


yes,, it doesnt really talk about getting well but i like the chorus part and it keeps me positive. hahahahaaaaa and of course its a NEYO song so, automatically i loved it! hahahaa i just hope that you like it too, cause' its an old song and i know people nowadays like new and up-to-date songs but i''m really hoping that you like my choices and really listen to them.

well bye for now.

laters babes.

ANNOUNCEMENT

hey guys! you're all probably wondering what the hell happened to me. well as of today i'm going through a sick phase. i've been admitted to the hospital just last week and i stayed there for 2 nights, apart from that i am still sick. been puking (sorry for the term) all over, coughing every minute and sniffing away colds, so i feel really bad, but dont worry, i've been taking up my meds religiously and i hope that i get well soon!

next reason why i havent posted anything new is that my laptop is currently down, im just using my niece's laptop or when its unavailable im using my dad's desktop but i really really miss my lappiee i hope that it gets fixxed ASAP!!!! my brotha/sistah accidentally spilled some tinola over it and it wont start, so please please bear with me here.

i will be back soon! i promise. theres been a fuss in the internet here at the philippines about cyber something and i really really love my freedom of speech so i dont want to be called a liar and all so im laying low these times. and if you're wondering what my take is about the issue, well i'll post my own opinion on a different post. but for now im really really sorry for not updating soon! i'll be back before you even get the chance to miss me.

well i gotta go. im not feeling well again! wish me luck and i love you all!!!!

PART 1

hi there! i'm so very sorry for making all of you wait. im a bit busy with my on going thesis at school, but fear not i came bearing gifts! so this is the first of many from this series and i hope that you'll like my song choices for this week. i know i told you that you get to choose at the end of the week which songs you liked the best but lets be honest, nobody here is actually viewing my blog so , i'd just post songs and open up topics which are revolving around it. so there. i hope that you'd enjoy the first one!

PART OF THE LIST BY NE-YO


so i'm having a NEYOBSSESSION this week and i finally decide to post 3 of my favorite song from NEYO. i really really miss how he used to make his song before, cause' right now his song are more of upbeat and rap. i missed listening to his RNBs and i really like his voice when he sings ballads, so hope that you'll like it. and stay tuned for 2 more :)))

UP COMING POSTS!!!

hi again everyone! so after weeks of not posting regularly due to schedule conflicts, i've already got some free time to spare during these coming weeks and what way to celebrate it than to do a "SERIES" post. so for the month of september, i'll be posting what i call "THE MUSIC CHRONICLES" so its just basically a group of three songs that i would recommend you listen to for the week and then by the end of that week, i'll be posting a verdict of which song best describes the happenings within that week. i hope that you'll all support this little activity that i have.

dont worry, im not all music, i'll be posting books and movies as well. so all you bookworms and movie enthusiast better be ready. i'm still thinking of a catchy title for them so, watch out soon!

laters!

BEST GANGNAM EVER!!!

hi guys! i just want share this video made by a very close friend of mine and its really really good! if ever your a KPOP fan well this one is definitely for you!!! its a proud product of MAS students in Mapua. so i hope that you'll fin time to watch it! ENJOY!!



LATERS BABES!

September 3

HAPPY (SUPPOSED TO BE) THIRD ANNIVERSARY MR. KILAY.

sweet memories were relived today.
loving and caring words you said.
its been 5 months since we last talked to each other.
5 months since we've had laid eyes on each other.

every memory of us being together came crashing back to me.
how could i ever forget all the times we've spent.
loving you was as easy as i could breathe but letting you go is as hard seeing you leave.
nothing i would do could change what has happened
nothing i would say could bring you back.
all my love was wasted, 2 years of my life went by.
i never should have loved you from the start.

all i could do is be happy for you.
all i could wish is that she is the one to be.
all i could be is just another girl, who became a fool for loving you.

HAPPY third year anniversary.
and know that no matter what my love for you is still true.


Bon Iver, "I Can't Make You Love Me" (Bonnie Raitt cover)

WHERE YOU CAN FIND ME :)

well im posting all the social networks where in you can find me. feel free to add me up or follow me. i like hearing from you directly and i hope through this you can voice out what you like and what you dont like. so here they are:

FACEBOOK:

http://www.facebook.com/puleng16

TWITTER:

https://twitter.com/paulineavelino

SOUND CLOUD:

http://soundcloud.com/paulineavelino

YAHOO EMAIL:

paulineravelino@yahoo.com OR paulineavelino@yahoo.com

there they are, so i hope that i'd be hearing from you bloggies soon!

*IF I AIN'T GOT YOU*

hi guys!
i really really missed updating my blog! i know, i know i promised that i'd be updating more often but college life is slowly eating me away. i've got tons and tons of drawings, home works and reports to submit everyday! so its really hard to sneak a few 'me' moments. so whats new with me? i think i've develope my drawing skills and i've became more focused on my studies. in term of love, well i guess i'm happy to inform you all that i'm happily single and not chained in any other way. hahahahaa anyways here is my music recommendation for now.

MAROON 5 COVER *IF I AINT GOT YOU*


so your probably wonder why the cover version, well for starters, its Adam Lavine singing and its just the message really that i like. look at it this way, if ite me thats singing, i would be singing this to you my bloggies and how i really really love knowing that you're reading my posts. so there.

i hope that you are disappointed with me but i promise to keep on updating even if im super dooper busy. i love you all!

laters babes!

DEPEKTIBO

minsan sa buhay ng tao, hindi lahat ng plano mo nangyayari. minsan may mga tao ding gustong sumira at gumulo sa mga planong ito. pero kahit minsan ba hindi mo man lang naisip na baka dahil sa mga plano mo ay nakaksira ka din ng ibang tao?

hindi lang ikaw ang importante sa mundong ito, natutunan ko yan sa mahirap na paraan. hindi laging iikot ang buhay ko sa buhay mo. hindi ko laging sasambahin ang sahig na kinatatayuan mo. dahil sa ayaw mo man o gusto't hindi lang ikaw ang importante sa buhay ko. oo, minahal kita ng lubos at walang kulang, inialay ko sayo ang mundo pati ang buwan. sabihan mo man na ang 'corny' ko ngayon wala na akong pakialam. 

sana lang naintindihan mo na nasaktan mo din ako, na hindi ako gawa sa bato. nararamdaman ko din and mga nararamdaman mo, hindi mo ba nakita ang mga paghihirap na dinanas ko parang ika'y sumaya? sinuway ko ang hiling ng mga magulang ko, pinapilitan ko ang mga kasinungalingang ipinakain mo sakin sa mga mukha nila. hindi mo man lang naisip na sa mga oras na nagsisinungaling ako sa kanila ay unti-unti akong nadudurog at nawawasak sa loob? hinayaan ko na ang puso ko ang magisip kaysa sa utak ko. dahil sa minahal kita, iniwan ko lahat ng hindi importante sa buhay ko. isinakripisyo ko ang aking kaligayahan, kaligtasan at higgit sa lahat ang aking sarili para lang malaman mo kung gaano kita kamahal.

sana pala nung una hindi nalang kita nakilala. hindi nalang ako naglakas loob na aminin ang aking nararamdaman. ginamit mo lang ako, para sa ikaliligaya ng pagkatao mo. hindi mo naman ako minahal, hindi mo naman ako binigyan importansya, at higit sa lahat hindi mo man lang ako nirespeto.

ngayon nakikita ko na ang mga pagkakamaling ginawa ko sa buhay ko. hindi ako naging masaya sa tinagal ng pagsasama natin. hindi ko na maalala ang mga bagay bagay na ginawa natin. hindi na mahagilap ang dating pagtinggin, naubos tila ang tiwala at respetong mayroon ako sayo.

sana lang hindi mo nalang ako pinaasa. sana lang hindi mo nalang ako pinaibig sa isang tulad mo.

ang buhay ko'y tila isang espasyong naghihitay na mapuno. lagi nalang kinaliligtaan ng mga taong dumaraan, dinadalhan ng kalat at dumi at minsan dinuduraan. ganyang ang buhay ko ngayon. dahil sayo, hindi ko na alam ang gagawin. dahil kahit anong limot ang gawin, hindi ko maisalis sa utak ko ang karumaldumal na sakit.

 

eto ako ngayon. isang DEPEKTIBONG nilalang na naghihitay sa pagkakataon na mabuhay muli mula sa hukay na pinaglagyan mo.

I MISS THIS!

hi guys! hows everyone doing? well as you can see i really really missed my daily posts here. i cant even begin to think of the countless of stories i've got for everybody, and all of the new experiences i've encounter with the past month. but i still need to set my schedule so that you're not waiting for me to post. hehehee but i promise next week i'll try to post something very unexpected. haha. but until then you'll hear from me very very soon!

Goodbyes are Not Forever...

hi there! i know, i haven't finished posting sing for the 'TWILIGHT ADDICT' theme and i'm sure most of you are disappointed or relieved that you didn't heard from me again. well let me first say THANK YOU to all my readers this past few weeks. thanks for keeping up with my craziness and utterly non helpful ramblings. i just hope that you enjoyed and appreciated all my efforts and doings on this blog. thank you for reading, i really really appreciate those who read my stuff and i guess you thought i was making sense or just plain stupid, anyways you are all loved and cherished.

so on the sad note tonight. i won't be able to promise you anything but since tomorrow is officially the start of my classes, i wont be much active in the blogging scene. i'd be focusing on my studies cause' its a tough world out there and i hope that you understand when i say that i really really need to let go of some of the distractions that i have and focus on my main goal. but dont fret, maybe if i have time i'll post on tuesdays or thursdays seeing that my classes are only until 12pm. so i hope that will give me time to update.

so thats all. until next time!
laters baby!

PS. I WILL BE BACK!!

There's A Possibility

really really sorry for keeping you all waiting. was distracted cause' i was reading this cool story called 'THE CONTRACT'. but i wont be talking about that now, maybe some other time. but i'm back with the next song which is from the second installment NEW MOON. i hope that you like this, cause most of the songs from their OST are really interesting
, not really something that you get to hear on a daily basis, but non the less their awesome! so deal with it!

SATELLITE HEART by ANYA MARINA


laters!

There is Something I See In You...

so the first movie of the saga was TWILIGHT. at first i really don't know anything about the books until some friends of mine started to talked about it and eventually they asked me to watch the film with them. so first impression was it was ok, good even but what really draw-ed me into the film and books; not just Edward/RPatz, was the story and how different it was from the usual vampire books. Stephanie Meyer did an amazing job in putting new flavors into the mix. she did not harbored with the rules, instead she made them her own. she broke vampire cliches with her stories and showed us that even vampires can love.

my song choice for this movie is DECODE by PARAMORE. i just like that it summarizes the movie into this song. that somehow it was written literary for the movie. the message and theme fits perfectly and because it was sung by paramore. so i hope that you'd enjoy this and bring back memory of how the movies started.

DECODE by PARAMORE


laters!

An Official Twilighter

happy saturday everyone! i hope that your having a great weekend and spending some quality time with your loved ones.

as you all know, i'm addicted to TWILIGHT and everything that involves around it. so for this days tunes i'd be paying my little tribute for them. and since i cannot wait for the last movie to come out, i'll post its trailer. i'll select one song that i like for each movie and i hope that you'd also like it!

TRAILER: BREAKING DAWN PART 2


watch out for the four songs today! i'll be posting the first 2 after this!

And Let It Go...

i saw transformers 3 this afternoon, again so i chose this song. it reminded me of my HS days. hahaha. so i hope that you'd enjoy.


IRIDESCENT by LINKING PARK


laters baby :)

College Feeling.

as you all know, my class officially starts on monday, July 9 and i'm pretty hyped up about it. i've already gotten my ID, bought my PE uniform and of course finalized my schedule. and since i'm a generous person i'll post my schedule, ID pictures. yes i know i'm really really proud of my new alma mater and i'm hoping to creat new and fun memories while i'm staying at Mapua Institute of Technology. i hope that you'll join and support me through out my college life!

that's all.
Laters.

If Happy Ever After Did Exists

hi there! sorry for the late post! i had a very very busy morning. i went to school today, got my ID and bought my PE uniform. yeah, i'm so tired right now i wanna sleep especially with the weather that we are experiencing. buuuut, since i love you all i won't be disappointing you by not posting my recommended tuned for today. this song just kinda came out of the blue, its new and very good. my friend and i were discussing it while we were walking in the streets of intramuros and i know that all of you would approve of my choice.

PAYPHONE by MAROON5


yes i know you like it. hahaha its the first time i posted a song of maroon 5 and i really really like this one. at first i thought it was all rap and stuff but never ever underestimate maroon 5 i really love this and i hope that you'll enjoy!

i'll post some pictures of my ID and my class schedule here later together with the other song! i hope you'll enjoy.

laters, baby :)

Brothers United

hi again everyone! how are you all doing? so its time for part 2 of 'FAMILY AFFAIR' and i'll be giving you original songs from the very very good looking band of BOYCE AVENUE. i really thing that i shouldn't dive deeper to this topic because seeing as they have established themselves quite good and for most of the part you probably know them already. so i won't be keeping you long and i do hope you enjoy the songs and the rest of the day!

CHANGE YOUR MIND by BOYCE AVENUE


FIND ME by BOYCE AVENUE


ciao!

Its a Family Affair

Thursday! i cant believe how time flies so quickly, in a matter of 3 days i'd be back to school and i'd probably go into 'working' mode again. so before all that happens, i would really really try my best to fulfill what i'd be missing for the next couple of weeks.

so for todays tunes, it is inspired by my dream last night. well mostly it was about family and all which is kinda weird but anyways i won't go into the specifics cause its pretty boring. for today, i'd picked up songs from bands/duo that are of the same blood. may it be brothers, sisters or both. if you're wondering why this specific theme for today, well i just really really love a family oriented thing, and just like everybody i love my family. so i hope that with this in mind you'd get to enjoy the songs.

WHAT CAN I DO by THE CORRS


RUNAWAY by THE CORRS


ok, ok i know i've posted 2 song already but i will still be posting another song later. i just really love this group that i cant help myself :) well ENJOY and have a great day ahead of you, see yah laterss

Close Your Eyes...

hi there! so very sorry for the late post, i was out the whole day.  went to manila to meet up with someone insignificant. so i was busy plus, traffic was so heavy! even though i wanted to go home early i couldn't so i hope that i dont disappoint with my last selection. this is for our foreign readers out there so i hope that you'd never feel left out!

YOU'LL BE SAFE HERE by RIVERMAYA


i'm tired, your probably tired to so i wont talk much right now. just feel the song and hopefully you'll get to experience the whole package.

ciao!

OPM Wednesdays!

hello there! 

so as you all know i am a proud Filipino living in the beautiful country of The Philippines and if you ever got the chance to see and experience Filipino music, you'd be surprised at how good it is. yes, most artists here has had their own inspirations from international personas, but what makes them different is how they bring themselves into the song and makes them their own. for today, i'd be posting songs by Filipino artists, one in tagalog and one in english for our foreign readers. i hope that you'd get to enjoy them as much as we Filipinos did.

HULING EL BIMBO by ERASERHEADS

enjoy the song and i hope it bring back old memories!

ciao!

A Little Country Wouldn't Hurt

so it's almost 1 o'clock in rainy Manila today and as of now the rain has yet to stop. classes in school are all suspended due to it and most probably people are pissed by the turn of events.

i guess the greeting 'i come bearing gifts' is appropriate for this gloomy afternoon. i'm back with the second song for tuesday and i think that this song suits the current situation of dear old Manila along with its occupants! so enjoy!

PRAY FOR YOU by JASON AND THE LONG ROAD TO LOVE


need i say more? i guess i'll just leave it at that.

ciao!

I Know You'll Get Me Right

hi everyone! so its been gloomy and rainy this tuesday morning and the steady rain fills our morning buckets. it's one of those moments when you would just stay in bed and cuddle up because of the weather. so for this day's tunes i have picked out rain-worthy songs. tunes that you would normally like to hear while bundled up and cozy-ly tucked away in your beds. so i hope that you'll enjoy the first song!

GET ME RIGHT by DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL


i'm not really that familiar with dashboard confessionals but when i stumbled upon this on my random playlist, i instantly feel in love with this song. yes, its is alternative and most of you don't like these stuff but i'm going on a limb here by saying that give it a chance. it a really really good song, listen to it while your sitting in your room and just feel it with the rain, you'd be amaze how great it feels. trust me, i have a very big and wide window at my room and i can definitely feel the coldness of the wind and i'm listing to this song and its just perfect! so i hope that you'd enjoy this and really give it a try. so, GOOD MORNING and have a great tuesday ahead  of you. oh! an yeah watch out for the other song, i'll post it sometime later :)))

ciao!

You are My Sweetest Downfall

so as i said this morning, i was out for the duration of the day. i was hanging out with my very bestest friend since childhood and we just had a great bonding moment. so this day turned out to be extraordinarily different. i made new discoveries of various things and if you wanted to know them, well you just have to ask for them. so anyways this is the next song that i'll be posting. so in keeping with the theme relaxed and casual tunes, this songs kinda sums it up for this day. its a very different song from what you are used to but i hope that you would like it.

SAMSON by REGINA SPEKTOR


i'm assuming that you've already heard the song and as usual its time for me to rant about it. well firstly i love the song because of the uniqueness of its tone. Ms. Spektor's voice is distinct and very different from the usual voices we hear. its relaxed and mellow. i can just imagine myself reading a romance novel while listening to this tune. its so great that you'll find yourself singing along with it. so i hope that you'd enjoy it as much as i did! ENJOY!

ciao!

In the Light of the Sun

GOOD MORNING! so how's everyone going? i'm currently eating breakfast which consists of really really fluffy scrambled eggs with a dash of BBQ sauce (yeah, i'm weird but it tastes awesome!) so for today i'd be going out and i'm not sure what time i'll be back, so just in case i'd be posting one of the songs now and if i still have time later i'd post the other one as well. so i hope you had a great night and yeah enjoy this song!


BOSTON by AUGUSTANA

you're probably wondering why this song? well for today's tunes i opted for the casual laid back and relaxed melodies. the weather in Manila has been on full mood swings, one time its sunny and another its raining like crazy so this song makes me just want to be indifferent. it really is just a free reign song. i'd listen to this and i automatically want to head for bed and just snuggle. its one of those songs that makes you feel sleepy and relax. its soothing and the aura its giving you is just so so nice.

i'd recommend this song for those who often find themselves stressed about work, school and such. if you just take the time to really listen and feel the song, it would definitely bring a great change in your mood. so at that i'll leave you all to enjoy this song!

ciao!

A Child in Awe of YOU.

so this is the second song for Sunday, its called TILL I SEE YOU by HILLSONG UNITED. its avery heartfelt song and its one of my favorite. it always gives me goosebumps whenever i hear this song, so i hope that you'll enjoy and think about you relationship with Jesus and i wish that you'd feel the same sensations i am feeling right now. so i leave you all with this song! HAPPY WEEK EVERYONE AND GOD BLESS!

Just because its HIS day :))

so true to my promise, this is the first of the 2 for Sunday! and i hope that you'd understand why i chose this songs since it is HIS day, so why not right? we only have to go to church every Sunday and i felt like i was right for me to do this so don't expect something else. these songs are purely GOSPEL/CHRISTIAN so right, oh and i almost forgot, I AM A BORN AGAIN CHRISTIAN. it is not a religion or a domination, it is a lifestyle that i chose to have and to live by.

this song is called COUNTING ON GOD by The Desperation Band.


i just really love the song and it's message. its that simple. TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

JUUULYYYYYY!!!

hi there awesome people! well its official! i only got 8 more day to go before i finally go back to school!!! well college is the more appropriate term, well anyways, i can'y f'ing describe what i'm feeling right this moment. its a mixture of excitement, anxiety, worry, fear and concern all wrapped up in a bundle. i guess that its normal for me and for you to feel this way. change can be a very big word when it comes to reality, often people don't adapt to their new surroundings and find themselves hard to cope up with their works. luckily for us, we don't get to experience that.

so its the fist day of july and i'm pretty hyped up about the coming events and as early as today i must say my deepest and sincerest apologies to my avid readers. why? because i'm pretty sure that the next couple of month would be as hectic as it will ever be. i'll be swamped with homeworks, quizzes, exams and so fort that i wouldn't be able to update or post articles in a weekly or daily basis. yes, i know i've promise to post every week but seeing as my schedule for my first semester is monday to saturday, i think you'd be hearing less of me (for some its a total celebration!) so for this week, i'll try to post as many as i can everyday to make up for the coming weeks that i would be so damn tired and busy to do. so, i'll give you a run down of the positives that i would be doing this week;

FIRST, i'd be posting 2 songs everyday! i mean that's 10 in a week's time. although it would be in hell cause' i need to constantly have new material, but since i love you all that won't be a problem. if you could just see the vastness of my music library you'd think that i'm such a geek, i've got Micheal Jackson to 30 seconds to mars to The Corrs and even the Local OPM band Hale. so you don't have to worry in that department.

SECOND, apart from the 2 songs i'd be posting there will be some little articles from here and there (just like this one!) so you'd be reading about off topics and non sense from again. but anyhoo... at least it would keep you entertained right?

THIRD AND LAST, maybe. just maybe i'd be recomending some blogs for you to check out as well while i'm gone for the while. but i haven't had the courage to do that so i might chicken out, cause' you know, i'm not that good at writing and all so maybe i'd just not do it at all. well, i'm not just going to recommend blogs, but i'll also try to make reviews of books, movies and so on. so just stay tuned, you might not know what i've been thinking.

so that's that and i'll leave you all to your ponderings! and i'll see you all tomorrow!

ciao!

Bored

so, i'm sitting on my bed, eating Butterfinger and drinking a liter of water. yeah i know boring right? well i may seem like a fun and jolly person but inside i'm just as quiet as the wind. yes, i know i don't seem the type of person who always space out and become really silent but deep inside i enjoyed these quiet moments to myslelf. because i know that once i get out to the real world, i wouldn't be given this privilege to have this sort of 'me' time.

if you ever follow me on a day to day basis, which means my regular day when i don't have classes or that i didn't go somewhere, you'l find my routine very basic.
I WAKE UP
I EAT BREAKFAST
I OPEN MY EMAILS, FACEBOOK, TWITTER
I READ BOOKS/FANFICS
I EAT LUNCH
I CONTINUE READING
I TAKE A BATH
I EAT SNACKS
I SIT IN MY ROOM
I EAT DINNER
I CLEAN UP
I GO TO BED
and every day that is my routine. nothing exciting. nothing to look forward to.

but this past few weeks has certainly had its points. i was able to see more of my friends and talk to them. conversing with my family has been easy and carefree. finding something remotely to do was always present.

so i have less than 2 weeks before i finally go to school and i'm really really excited about it. i'm not excited about the people that i'd meet  per say, but i am excited for the challenge and trill that i'm about to embarked on. people say that college is where you either make it or break it, but for me i look at college as somewhat an extension of who i am. i am taking up a program that i see my self in, that i have the passion to actually pursue and take on. it is what i see myself doing in the next 5 to something years. and for that to be the foundation of what my life's going to be.

but for now i have to sit patiently for the time to come. foe now i'll enjoy the quiet and succumbed to my fantasies and be brought to different parts of the universe until the time that i bring myself back to my own reality.

Awesome People

ok, so since i love you all, i'll be posting something that i normally wouldn't post but the hell with it.

so today, June 28, 2012 was one of the happiest day i have had since the start of my vacation. there is only 2 weeks left before i officially enter the world of college. this day however made me realize what i've been missing this past 4 months. i met up with two of my bestest and greatest friends. it was refreshing to see them. being bound captive in the four corners of my room really took a toll on me. i didn't even realize how much i've missed them until we were actually conversing face to face.

let me talk about the 2 people that i would choose over my boyfriend. first one is Esen Laguna. we've know each other since we were grade 5. she's a really awesome chick. anyone would tell you how great she is. currently she is studying at Mapua Makati, yes i know its sad cause i'm at the Intramuros branch. but relatively speaking, distance was never a problem for us. through out the years we've had a close relationship even if we were in separate classes. its like we never were apart. we know exactly what the other is thinking and what the other person likes or dislikes. i'd say i'm a lucky girl to ever meet her. we've been through thick and thin and like most bestfriends we've also experience some down times. but what really makes her so cool is that she really is a great friend. she's supportive, fun, active and loves a good laugh. if you've got problems and all she'll be the first person to answer your call. she doesn't judge you for your worth but actually see's the person you really are. she an intelligent and sweet girl that most of you would fall in love with. she is approachable and kind. well i'm practically gushing right now and i've got one more friend to talk about. so to sum it all, my dear friend Esen is my rock and she's totally awesome!

nest is a pretty young thing called Monica Labing Isa. i've known her for 4 yeras since i was a second year. she equally awesome as Esen but she has a distinct quality that really suits her. i love her to the deepest pit of my heart. i love that we share a passion for gossip (yeah, tell me about it) and that we hate the same people. hahahaaa, but kidding aside what really makes Monica a great friend is because she understands. whatever it is your problem she always has something to say. she never runs out of ideas and would be there for you. she is now studying at Mariam College and taking up Accountancy. hse's full of wit and fun. there is never a dull moment with her. you'll never run out of conversation topics and she's always got the latest insight of all things. i love the way that she's afraid of technology, opting to do the traditional ways. i like that her stranghts are my weakness and her weakness are my strengths. we really compliment each other and of course we love talking so much.

seeing them again today really made me realize that i have a great bunch of friends, even though i don't have many but, they are still all important and precious to me. well i hope that they get to actually read this and be happy for what i said. this goes without saying that without this 2 people in my life i don't know where or who will i be. they hold me firm on the ground and never misses a day to remind me of why and what am i here for.

so with this i hope that you get a feel of what my life and my friends are all about.
until next time!

ciao!

If You Ever Come Back by The Script and Every time We Touch by Cascada

hi there everybody!! so this week i happen to chose 2 songs for us. why? because i'm suffering from a difficult break up. yeah, yeah i know its sad, bad things just dont go the way we wanted them to be. these song really remind me of HIM. and i really just like to remind myself that WE were something great before. so yeah, i hope you'll listen to them first then read my 'why' part at the bottom.

IF YOU EVER COME BACK BY THE SCRIPT:


EVERYTIME WE TOUCH (SLOW VERSION) BY CASCADA

credits to: dragengirl08

so i'm not really going into the specifics of the songs 'cause quite frankly i'd be sharing my personal reason why i have chosen these songs. yes, its more on the personal side and i know that you really don't need any of my rambling here but i dont really care. so any ways, the first song 'if you ever came back' really makes me want to revive my lost relationship. the song is really all about getting back together. i never really stopped loving him, and if it were up to me we never should have broken up. and with this song, i just really wanted HIM to know that whatever circumstance we are in, i would not hesitate to help him out. yes, we may not get back together but i would always be a shoulder to cry on. we had a great friendship and i wouldn't want that to go to waste. if i had my way we would be back to our old selves. i miss him badly. i missed the time we would laugh out loud. i missed the times we would hang out. i missed the way we talk about everything and anything under the sun. but most of all i missed our private moments when only the two of us knows what the other is thinking about. if ever he was reading this, i would like him to know that i will never be gone, that even if we were with someone else i would always be here loving and caring for you and if thing were not to late and that you do realize that you somehow want me again, i would gladly take you back.

moving on before i become a mush here.
'everytime we touch' reminds me of the time we were a little intimate with each other. i really miss the holding of hands and the hugs we share. though i know that somewhere, sometime ago that we shared these affections, they really meant a lot to me. no one has ever made me feel loved and cherish than him. and i guess thats why i chose this song.

so really thats all there is to it. yeah, i was bitter and naive but could you blame me? i really though the he was THE ONE. but sadly, i wasnt really enough for someone like him.so i hope that you'd enjoy the songs and do me a geat favor of finding a different meaning to them then email me. so thats that for now.

ciao.

:)

hi there! just a quick announcement! hahahaa

so if you want copies of the songs i have been posting here you can comment here and type in your email. i can give you the free songs (or album if im in the mood) and i'll send them to you via email.

have a nice day! :))

ciao!

Paradise by Coldplay

video:


ok so, for this week's music recommendation i really had a hard time finding new material for this. so its really a miracle when i was going through my music collection when i just randomly picked a song and then this is what played.


i always have a big fascination over bands and such. i love that there are so many minds working on a record. so this week, i opted for a coldplay song from their new album 'Mylo Xyloto'. it's funny cause i was never really into the rock genre but something about bands like Coldplay, Linkin Park and The Fray that has me kinda hooked on their music, yeah yeah your probably thinking that i'm weird, well guess what yes i am. but having a bizarre taste in music makes me really proud of. i dont really settle for the usual RnB so yeah, whatever(i'm rambling now) back to the song. what really made me love this song is the uniqueness of the sound and texture. its not something that you hear from a rock band. plus the message of the song really sets me into action. i kinda like picture myself looking for paradise and all, so that really hits some deep rooted desires from me. but the fact that you could actually sing to it while listening, plus the lyrics are so easy to memorize because its repeating over and over.


i give this song thumbs up if you just want to relax and unwind. its great if your having alone time and just read a good book with some coffee or tea. so i hope that you'd have the time to listen to this wonderful song. so with that i'll leave you to rest and have a great week ahead of you. 

IMPERFECTIONS

i was never your favorite daughter.

i was never your first choice.

all that i am to you is just another child.

i never felt your love.

i never felt your care.

i never felt your acceptance.

i did everything that i could to gain your approval.

i spent my whole life trying to impress you

i made myself independent so that i would seem strong in your eyes.

you never took notice, didn't even make an effort to get to know me. countless nights of crying and self loathing is what i sleep to. yes i've made mistakes, but i learned from them. i wasn't going for perfection, i was only doing everything that i could do for you to take notice.

it was always about them and never about me.
what do they have that i don't?
the same blood and genes runs in our systems.
the same eyes, nose and hair.
but what do you see in me that makes me different from them?

all i ever wanted was for you to see me, was for you to appreciate me.
i never wanted the things you give me, it never made me happy that you gave me gift just because it was my birthday. i wanted to be loved. i want to feel the same adoration that you gave my siblings.

but you know what? i never once questioned the way you raised me.
i never asked for more than what was necessary. i loved you from the beginning. i had no choice but to accept what was given to me. i would never choose someone else over you. you gave me life and reason. without you i wouldn't be the strong and dependable person that i am now.

you became a beacon in my life. my hero and confidant when i felt troubled. you never once made me feel alone. yes, you were absent during my times of triumph and were constantly presents in time of my defeat. but during those times you never ceased to forget to remind me of my roots.

thank you for being you. thank you for the endless things that you have done and given me. I LOVE YOU FATHER and you deserve nothing but the best.

FAST CAR by Tracy Chapman, cover by Boyce Avenue

so last week i posted the song 'I Won't Give Up' by Jason Mraz and it was really really a great song and all but this week i kinda took a different direction, opting for an oldie instead of something new. Yeah, yeah i know, i suck right? but you can never really know what great music is if you don't go for the oldies. actuallt the version that i am digging right now is the cover of Boyce Avenue ft.Kina Grannis, but i also happen to like the original one. yeah, so..i'd be doing a 'review' for the both and lets see which one is better (though nothing beats the original, fo' sho') here's the video of the covered one:



and here is the original one:



so, that the two versions of the song in which i really like. so where to start, i think i'll start with the original one if you don't mind? hahahaa, of course you don't.

Tracy Chapman is a singer-songwritter and started out her careen during 1986, she is know for her songs 'Fast Car' and 'Baby Can I Hold You'. her distinct and prominent voice is what sets her apart among her peers and colleagues. (gosh, i'm so formal here). anyways from what i've researched her songs tends to have a deeper meaning other than the obvious. her song 'Fast Car' is actually brings awareness to poverty (yeah, i know right, such an awesome song for the Philippines) well, i really think that its smart of her to really voice out her concerns and let her listeners and other people know what is happening around us. the luxury of having expensive things and splurging on materials that we don't really need, for some is a dream come true. but when you think about the people that actually has nothing, you tend to digress and feel selfish, cause' here you are bathing in all the money in the word and at the same time people outside are dying from starvation and the cruel weather. ok, i've broached a heavy topic here, so to lighten up the song is really cool. its different from the ones you usually hear. its bluesy sound is really appealing if you want to relax and think about things. its a great soothing tune to your ears, i've actually got my player on replay with this song while writing so, yeah its really awesome!

now that that's done, lets move on to boyce avenue's cover.

i really really think that since it was a duet, it gave the song more character and dept. it has a certain vulnerability to it. for me i sense a story from to points of view. its light and breezy, it has a certain charm to it. now, i know that your all thinking that this band has actually done numerous covers for a lot of artists, but i think that they bring something different to songs they do and they actually gives it a twist, like what the judges in American Idol said, they put themselves in the song, they make it theirs. they don'y copy the originals and they put their own sense to it. i actually have their complete collection of covers and original songs (yes they do have originals) so i really get the impact for listening to all their songs, which is a lot! ok ok, the girl, Kina Grannis, is actually good here. she has a very distinct voice like the original. her smooth and husky tone really brings out a different aura to the song. so i give her plenty of thumbs up there! all in all i think they did a wonderful job of bringing justce to such an incredible song!

there you've read what i've gotta say and i know that somehow you've also though about some of the things i brought up. i hope that you'd enjoy the song just as i have and realize that sometimes its good to take a second look on the oldies and you might not know, you just might find the perfect song for you.. so to that i'll leave you all to ponder!

ciao! 

I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz

(listen to it while reading)

i first encounter this song while flipping channels in the telly. since i really love the channel i stopped and listen to what it is currently showing then this song came up. i was really drawn to it because of the laid back melody and soulful lyrics. it speaks about getting through tough times and great challenges. it urges us to do whatever it takes to get through whatever we are facing. it allows us to realize the love and care we have for the people around us and that whatever circumstances we are in, we should not lose hope and continue doing what we know is right. it lets us find the inner strength that we have and makes us do whatever it takes for the people we love.

in this song, you can hear the vulnerability of Jason Mraz' voice. its a different take on his usual carefree style. you can really hear the maturity and distinctiveness of his songs in his new album; LOVE is a four letter word.

so i hope that you'd get the chance to hear this wonderful song and really think about the things that matter most to you. things that you are willing to let go and things that should be worth fighting for.

THE MAN!! JASON MRAZ :)))

his latest album "LOVE is a four letter word" is out on the market! grab your copies!!

Something Different

Okay, so you're all probably wondering why i have this note. these past few days i've been to different sites and blogs that has really awesome insights that i realize that i could do so much more! i know, i know that i'm really just talking to my self around here and that i really don't get any readers or followers, but humor me a little bit.

So in the course of the coming weeks, i'd be posting about things, events etc. that i think are awesome and are praise worthy. i'd be like doing reviews and such. i won't be sticking to one genre, i could be babbling about food, music, books, celebrities and such so i don't think you'd be bored.

anyways, i'll leave you all to your doings and i hope that even just a little bit, you'd be able to get a glance on the things that i am writing about!

ciao!

Hear Me Out

i didn't mean anything to what i did
it's just a game a i played
it's never meant for anyone

feelings hurt, respect is broken
i'm the one whose wrong again

now i'm trying to get trough my life
with eyes watching every step
i was never right, you only see the wrong in me.
I'M ALWAYS THE BAD ONE.

what i hate about my day
is when they start to compare
don't you know what i feel??
i was stripped down and i shuttered to the ground

can you hear me?
i'm shouting what i have to say
but no matter how loud i scream
no one seems to listen.

in your eyes i'll always be a liability
you're blinded by lies that you can't see what is real.

i'm always WRONG and you're always RIGHT

why? why? why?
could you be so unfair?
why don't you try to open you ears and listen to me
you're over ruled by stories you hear, but do you know what is real??

hear me out..
maybe i have something to prove
that maybe my side is something to consider.

i am who i am..
and i'll never change.
for what i am makes me the person you see.
NO MORE, NO LESS

UNFORESEEABLE

i have not foreseen this coming...
that one day i'll be saying this to you.
I'M OVER YOU.

i'm finally free from depressions and pain, i'm free from jealousy
and most of all..i'm free from my love for you...

it's been days since i've spoken your name, since i've longed to see your face, since i've wish that you might someday be the one.
i'm free from this rechedness that you kept me under.
i'm finally breathing in my own air for the first time.

ohh..how light it is to feel normal and out of problems...
too bad..
you and i make quite a few good things..

but..away from being free..
i truly would like to thank you for everything..

you opened my eyes and heart to things that i never knew exist.
thank you for teaching me how to love..
you've been my inspiration..and you'll always be..
THANK YOU SO MUCH!

DEAR BESTFRIEND

thinking about the years we've spent.
all the memories and events that has occurred and shared.
i never would have imagined that we'd grown apart.

i was always the one there for you when you needed help.
i was always the one there for you when you got hurt.
i was always the one there for you when no one else was.

now every memory, every evidence and every fact that i knew about you left me questioning if they were true.
from all the people i have been with, i never expected you to be the one who would do this to me.

questions, lots ans lots of questions keep haunting my mind. sorting through all the things you've told me.
"I CANNOT DISTINGUISH THE TRUTH FROM LIES"
is it true that you have this...
is it real that you're...
do you even have that...
do you even know him...
IS HE A REAL PERSON?
these questions kept on resurfacing every time i think of you.

i have been deprived from the truth.
many are telling me that there's something not right about you.
that you've become this person that tries to out shine others.
ITS NOT YOU.
ITS NOT THE GIRL I'VE MET BEFORE.
WHO ARE YOU?

i tried to defend you.
i tried to convince them that it's not who you are, that maybe they've mistaken you for someone else.
but with each lie, it gets bigger. as lies began to be covered up with new lies.

i tried to reason out.
maybe you sad?
maybe you feel alone?
maybe you need assurance?
but with time, i see you becoming a different person.
a person unrecognizable behind every anomaly you've created.

i find myself distancing ME from you.
offering opportunities so you can tell me the truth.
but what i found left me bothered.
"YOU TRIED TO FEED ME WITH MORE OF YOUR LIES."

i cannot stand and see my "BESTFRIEND" get eaten by the darkness.
i've somehow learned to detach my self from you.
now we barely talk, hardly saw each other.

i do not regret the things i did.
i cannot watch you destroy what little dignity you've got.
I CANNOT BE CAUGHT IN ASSOCIATION WITH YOU.

all i wish is that you'd get your new start.
that you manage to change and grow into someone different.

yes, this is me telling you that we are no longer friends.
this is me saying that you've actually wasted a decade's worth of friendship. because somehow you've manage to let your selfishness over power your self reasoning. and for that i am truly sorry.